i am not ready

hi! my exams is really coming really fast and i am not ready for that.

 i feel scared and i feel nervous. god help me please.

i feel weird

Actually i have other blog to mumble and talks about something. People i know personally did read taht blog and i do feel kind of insecure since my language is not that good. i guess that is the reason why i do not blog much. i mean the readers that i know will complain to me about my grammatical errors, spelling mistakes, and the list goes on.

It did makes me not really free to blog. I had my limitations there and sometimes it felt like i dont have freedom anymore.I feel like people keep watching me and ready to ambush me or grab me whenever i am feeling down. You know how you feel when you feeling down and people keep judging you until you felt really you dont belong anywhere.

This problems of proofreading stem from my lack of knowedge. i cannot write well and my english is really suck. do not get me started on another language.

it is kind of ironic because my intention to start blogging was to improve my writung skills and my lack of english language. But then along came this problems and since then i do not blog much.

Also the reason i blog is my life is not as excited and colorful as yours. But i do not want to write about that. Maybe later but not today. I do think i also need to write about reasons why i started blogging.

So now i am starting this new blog in purpose to learn writing and learn english language and learn from my mistake. if you want to be success, you really need to start making mistakes.

Some of you might ask, why dont i just make my blog private... Well, the answer is,  i really want people to read my writings. i mean people who do not know me and just stumble upon this blog and just read and read. i do not want readers to know me.

Plus, i dont want to write a diary. i want to be out there. i want to be free. i want to be creative and innovative.

This post is really weird.

This is my first post

as defined by dictionary.com ingather means to gather or bring in, as harvest. Therefore, in this opportunity, i would like to gather and harvest as much as i can, as well as practising my ability to write well.

my utmost target in building this blog is to improve myself. and in doing that, i really hope that dear readers can benefit something from my writings.